My maternal fetal doctor called today and told us that results from the second amniocentesis confirm that Oliver has Triploidy. With Triploidy, there is no chance for survival, and Oliver will die either within the womb, or shortly after birth. However, my doctor is concerned because I am developing preeclampsia. At times it is difficult for me to breathe because my pulse and blood pressure are high. I typically have LOW blood pressure – it was at or below 90/50 earlier in my pregnancy. I’ve also started getting pains in my left kidney – which can be another indicator of preeclampsia. Therefore, my doctor is scheduling me for an early induction later this week. That day will probably be one of the most difficult days or our lives, but we will get to see our sweet baby boy, and will cherish the short time we will get with him.
Today’s news was really getting to me… Every time I walked into a room of our house, I was reminded in some way that I’m going to lose him. So, we asked my parents if they could come over and help us remove all of the baby items from the house. We had clothes and smaller things stacked up on our sunroom’s bookshelves, a changing table in our bedroom, clothes in our dresser, and tons of stuff in the garage and laundry room. It was heartbreaking to see all of the baby stuff leave the house, but I really feel like we needed to make that step so that when we return from the hospital we can start healing emotionally. We will be going through all of the items when we are emotionally stable enough to do so, and will be donating most of it.
Today we also talked to the kids. This was very very difficult… They know that Oliver is very sick, and will be going to Heaven this week. I promised that they would be able to say their goodbyes before we go to the hospital, and that we would take pictures of him and will hopefully have a tiny urn with his ashes. We also reminded them that Oliver will always be their brother, even while he’s in Heaven.
I will update everyone when we find out which day this week that we will be going to the hospital. Thank you SO SO much for those of you who continue to make donations toward our fundraiser page. John and I are missing a lot of work through all of this, and will have quite a few medical bills in the end. So THANK YOU from the bottom of our hearts – it means the world to us. Also, thank you to those who have offered to help out by bringing food over or watching the kids for us. John can’t cook (sorry John…) and it’s been hard for me to get out of bed most days…so food helps A LOT 🙂
Please continue to pray that we have strength through these times. We have to remind ourselves daily that God is not doing this to us, but that He will get us through this.